Little White Circles

[Verse 1] Alarm on the nightstand buzzing She hits it like it said her name Half cup of coffee Cold on the counter Scrolls her phone Feels exactly the same Same gray sweater Same subway window Her face a stranger in the glass She mouths "I’m fine " to her reflection Lets the question quietly pass [Chorus] Little white circles in a plastic tray Line ’em up Swallow down Keep the dark away If I can’t feel high At least I won’t break But what am I living for If I only feel okay? Tell me there’s a reason More than staying in one piece I’m tired of surviving I want something like belief [Verse 2] Friends say "Girl You’re doing amazing" Good job Good hair Good mask She laughs at the jokes Times all her answers Turns her sadness into tasks Doctor’s office Ticking clock “How’s your mood?” she shrugs and lies There’s a stack of magazines about better living She can’t meet their smiling eyes [Chorus] Little white circles in a plastic tray Line ’em up Swallow down Keep the dark away If I can’t feel high At least I won’t break But what am I living for If I only feel okay? Tell me there’s a reason More than staying in one piece I’m tired of surviving I want something like belief [Bridge] What if there’s a day She wakes up and wants to stay? Buys flowers for herself Just to watch them fade Calls her mother first Writes bad poems on receipts Finds a stranger’s dog And laughs there in the street (oh) Maybe purpose isn’t loud Maybe it’s quiet But it’s proud [Chorus] Little white circles in a plastic tray Line ’em up Swallow down Keep the dark away If I can’t feel high At least I won’t break But what am I living for If I only feel okay? Maybe there’s a reason More than staying in one piece Tonight I’ll keep surviving Till I stumble into peace